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I’m Bad At…

Posted by: | July 17, 2014 | 8 Comments |

When I first started teaching over 20 years ago, I remember asking little kids questions like, “Who is a great singer?” Every single one of them raised their hands. For every grade level “older” I asked the same question, fewer and fewer kids raised their hands. The same pattern emerged if I asked them if they were good artists, good basketball players, good dancers, etc.

As we get older, we start to compare ourselves more with the people around us, and that’s a very human thing to do. Eventually, we start understanding what it means to be a good _______, because we have more experience from which to make those comparisons.

Sadly, the trend I’m seeing in the last decade or so is that I see fewer hands raised when I ask those questions of little kids now. When I returned to the elementary music classroom in 2009, I actually had kindergarten students tell me they were bad singers. WHAT!? How does a 5 year old kid think he’s a bad singer?

When I started at Anastasis in 2011, I remember an 8 year old who told me she couldn’t draw at all. When I asked her if there was something wrong with her hand that made it impossible to draw, she laughed a little but then remarked that she just wasn’t good at drawing. We talked about how we’re all still learning and that practice is important, but underneath it all, I wanted to cry listening to this child’s defeatist attitude at 8 years old.

Where is this coming from?

While I’d like to blame Malcolm Gladwell and his pseudoscientific (and factually incorrect) 10,000 hours claim, I can’t. It’s not Gladwell.

It’s all of us.

I stopped to think about the number of times I’ve apologized to my students or my own children before doing something that I wasn’t really great at doing. There are too many examples.

cc licensed photo by anna gutermuth

cc licensed photo by anna gutermuth*

Whenever I’ve gone up to the chalkboard or whiteboard to draw a diagram or an image, I have apologized to my class before: “Sorry, I’m not a great artist, so this won’t be that good.”

I’ve just set them and myself up for judgment about what is good, and I’ve also given them an example of an adult who is so insecure about drawing that she has to apologize before she even starts.

Additionally, I’ve put a poor value on something that might be better than what my students might have drawn. If I say “this is bad,” then what does that mean to a kid who might not have drawn as well as I did?

“Wow, Mrs. B must think my drawings are REALLY bad then.”

I’ve stopped doing that.

And now I think about all the images and statements we unknowingly pass along to kids:

  • I’m bad at math.
  • Ugh. I hate my body. I’m going on a diet!
  • Karaoke? No way! I can’t carry a tune in a box!
  • I wish I could play tennis as well as Serena Williams, but I can’t… so I don’t even try.

I’m sure there are many more we could add to this list.

I’ve had a lot of time to reflect about certain things in the last week, and I’ve come to some very sad conclusions:

  1. My fear prevents me from doing things that I would probably really enjoy.
  2. If I’m not good at something, I don’t do it.

I love to sing and I was a voice major. I love singing karaoke with my friends, because it’s fun… not because I want to show off. However, it’s also a comfort zone. I’m not afraid to get on a stage and sing, because I’ve been doing that almost my entire life.

It really bothers me when I hear people say that they can’t sing. Of course they CAN, they just don’t think they’re any good at it. So, I encourage them… karaoke isn’t about who is the best singer; it’s about having a good time and enjoying yourself.**

I’m such a hypocrite.

My husband wants us to play tennis. I really, really suck at tennis. REALLY. So, I’ve been balking at the idea. When I finally told him that I’m afraid to play because I don’t know how, he just said, “So what. Let’s just go have fun.”

Permission to not be an expert and to just have fun. 

That’s incredibly freeing.

Hmmm… giving kids permission to try, not be perfect, and just have fun with it. I SAY that to kids all the time.

But I don’t DO it.

We all need to be better models for our kids, and DOING is more important then SAYING. We know that.

Time to walk the talk.

Time to stop saying, “I’m bad at...” and start saying, “I can’t wait to try (or practice)… and just have fun!

This doesn’t mean we should take away anything from people who are truly gifted in specific areas or erase competition from everything. Competition has its place, although I’ve written about its overemphasis, too. There is a need for expertise and talent to be recognized. However, there’s also a need for encouragement to SIMPLY TRY, and then practice to improve if it’s something you’re interested in improving.

ACTION:

  1. What things have YOU said, “I’m bad at…” to other people or kids?
  2. What steps can you take to eliminate that negative self-talk, whether you’ve been saying it aloud or just in your head?
  3. What would you like to try, but your fear has been holding you back from doing so?
  4. What can you do to start trying?
  5. How will you change your approach with children?

 

I’d love to hear your thoughts in the comments section. I know I’m not alone in feeling this way.

 

*photo credit: CC licensed photo by anna gutermuth, “124/365

**While I know karaoke might be a bad example (lots of “not great” singers get up to sing, usually after some form of liquid courage), singing is a great example. Singing is very personal, and I notice that, in the US especially, very few people in the crowd ever sing the national anthem at sporting events anymore. There’s always some professional at the microphone, and everyone else just listens. In Canada, I’ve noticed more people tend to sing along with their anthem. When I went to a Denver vs Australian Army rugby game a few summers ago, the Australians in the crowd were singing along, quite vigorously, with their anthem. So, is this just an American thing? Are we more insecure in the things we’re not great at than other nationalities? Maybe the Star-Spangled Banner is a bad example, because it truly is one of the most difficult songs to sing, but I still think there’s something about insecurity here that prevents people from singing.

 

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8 Comments

  1. By: Rodney on July 17, 2014 at 9:49 am      Reply

    WOW! I totally connect with this.
    “Fear is False Evidence Appearing Real.”
    I accept your challenge to stop using fear to hide behind and not try things because I think I can’t do it.
    How are you going to show this new approach in your classroom?

    • By: Michelle Baldwin on July 17, 2014 at 10:19 am      Reply

      Thanks, Rodney. Great connection! Oddly enough, I don’t think I fear things in the classroom. Being courageous and trying new things in learning come naturally for me – on an academic level. If I don’t know how to do something (like I had forgotten how to crochet, but I relearned with my students), I have no trouble sharing with them that I have to learn how to do it. I think the way I’ll show the kids (and I’ll be teaching the littles next year) is just to share with them all the new things I’m trying that are WAY outside my comfort zone. Maybe video myself learning to play tennis or something I’d ordinarily just keep at home. Thanks for helping me think through this.

  2. By: Jana Scott Lindsay on July 17, 2014 at 10:16 am      Reply

    Michelle…

    I have lived at least 3/4 of my life feeling like I wasn’t good at so many things. Wow… looking back I can’t believe how much time, and more importantly, energy was wasted on that kind of thinking. I wish I didn’t think this way… but I wholeheartedly feel a traditional learning environment, the classroom & school, is where I really started to cultivate this kind of thinking about myself.

    School wasn’t my safe place… it was where I went to day dream & figure out all the things I couldn’t do. Like memorize, get good grades, make friends…man, the list is endless. I have made a promise as an educator and a parent that I will work so hard to disspell this kind of the thinking in my students.

    Surrounding myself with people these last few years that believe in me has really helped… but being able to see my own value and worth has made all the difference!

    Thank you for sharing… and having the courage to say CELEBRATE WHAT WE ARE GOOD AT!

    • By: Michelle Baldwin on July 17, 2014 at 10:23 am      Reply

      Jana, thanks for that perspective. I agree that traditional learning environments play a part in that fear for me, too… however, mine might be the opposite. I was really good at the “game of school,” and I think that is why I don’t tackle my fears. I was rewarded so much for the things I was good at, that I became fearful of showing people anything I WASN’T good at. That’s taken me nearly 40 years to figure out (and here I thought I was a quick study. Ha!).

      Now, to put it all in practice, that will be the challenge. Thanks for the comment, friend. :-)

  3. By: Judith on July 17, 2014 at 11:54 am      Reply

    Wow,
    This is a great way to start flipping our brains’ approach to learning- whether it be teacher- student, student -student or simply yourself learning because you love it. The passion is there in all of us, lets help bring it out.

  4. By: @8amber8 on July 17, 2014 at 11:56 am      Reply

    Michelle! This is an incredible & honest post! I plan on sharing this with our teachers…we should encourage our Ss to fail and be proud!

  5. By: eugene cantera on July 17, 2014 at 5:06 pm      Reply

    Great post – here’s a TRUE STORY for you – We actually had a woman come to the door of the Dallas School of Music, put her hand on the knob, then close the door and start walking away. When we finally had a chance to speak with her (after a little fancy footwork!) she admitted that she always thought she could sing but a teacher (and I use that term loosely) back in grade school choir told her NOT to sing, but to “just mouth the words sweety” because she was making it hard for the other girls to sing in tune around her. OY!!!

    So we’re here to tell you that you CAN sing or do anything else you set your mind to for that matter. The old adage “think you can or think you can’t – either way you’re right” is true. The woman who visited DSM became our secretary and shortly thereafter sang at her first recital…later she joined a choir …and no one told her to ‘mouth the words!”

    • By: Michelle Baldwin on July 17, 2014 at 5:43 pm      Reply

      Thanks, Eugene. Oddly enough, I too was told that I would never be much of a singer. My elementary vocal music teacher said that to my mother. When I graduated high school with several voice scholarships, I was really proud that I had proven her wrong.

      I think what I’m trying to work out in this space, though, is a little different. I’m finding that my own negative self-talk has prevented me from attempting anything new. I’m 45 years old, and I should know better… it’s what I tell my students. “Whether you think you can or you can’t, you’re right.” I’m just realizing that I haven’t modeled that behavior. Can’t just SAY it, right? :-) Thanks for your response.

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